I guess I am not fully adultish and responsible yet,
so I cause a lot of people to worry about me and stuff like that.
=7=;; Sorry, please do not be burdened any longer.
I got asked on my last journal if I was going to disappear for a year again,
and instead of replying to them directly, I thought I'd address it in a journal so everyone can be rest assured.
While I am on a sort of semi-hiatus, it is only for art purposes.
My school counselor and my parents are going to great lengths to help me get organized so that I can properly do school and get good grades. I do not, by any means, take advantage of their intentions, either. At my age, I should have these kinds of habits figured out already; but I've fallen behind and they're kind of "helping me up" in that sense.
Last year, I was a hot mess. I spent the entire school year fumbling with everything and only getting more clumsy. I fell off the horse and now, instead of moving ahead with everyone else, I have to take the time to make sure I have the tools to move ahead.
If that doesn't make sense, last year everyone spent their year getting good grades and building a proper train to college. This year, they'll be maintaining and improving their trains with AP classes and such. I, on the other hand, spent last year fooling around. And now, while the kids ride their trains onward, I have to both build and ride my train before this year's end. If that puts things into perspective at all for you.
It's much less exaggerated than I'm explaining it, of course. I already have a planner and good teachers, and I'm confident in this coming year.
But case in point is to answer the question: will I be disappearing for another year?
Absolutely not. Semi-hiatus means I can't spend extra time doing art and things like that. I might upload an app or two and a doodle. Sketches to prove I'm alive. And those other ones because I already promised them to homies. And I'll always be on, if not during the week, definitely on weekends. Don't stress over whether or not I'll be here. Of course I'll be here. We're all friends, and I wouldn't just pick up and leave. lol I just can't make any serious commitments right now. So yeah... Just clearing up some air or whatever...
LOVE YOU ALL <333